Grateful Year - Thank You 2017

Sunday, December 31, 2017

No more New Years resolution for next year! I'm just going to an open canvas next year and let God do all the planning... This year I decided a lot of things in terms of life, throughout my whole life I've always been so good following with rules and instructions and of course planned out future on what to do next. However after finishing school I kinda have the liberty to choose what I wanted to do and it somehow bring fear at first cause its the first time I've ever had the chance to finally decide on what I truly wanted. So this year I made the full speed pursuing something I love, words and writing has been my best friends cause I'm never good at speaking. So writings become my best way of expressions as words just flows, it has always been on the back of my head since forever but I never had the courage to show the world what's in me.. Fearing they would judge and misunderstand as most people do simply because they don't understand. Judging is so much easier when you don't try to understand! I understand that the work I'm pursuing is not something most people in general do, in this creative industry everything moves so quickly and it has no 9-5 working hours but I find myself working even on holidays but somehow this work I'm doing bring me peace, joy and self contentment. I don't know about you, but for me all this feelings bring so much colors into my life. Thank you 2017 for letting me choose who I wanted to be.. Thank you for giving me courage to walk on the unknown.

I've always had the thought that I'd just be like anyone else finish school and work for a corporate enterprise but life somehow turns out different from how I thought it would be. I walked into a path that was strange, new and full of excitement yet fearful! I can't hardly see what's next for me but all I did was took the leap of faith and just go with the flow. I'm not saying I'm successful yet cause I know I'm not and still far from it but just like anyone else, everyone has their own standard of success. There is no need to generalize and be cynical about anyone's life choices cause its their life, not yours. For me finding joy in the work I do and being able to contribute to something I hold dearly to my heart is very much something that brings a huge heap of self satisfaction and self rewards. It's not always about the monetary aspect, sometimes its about personal growth. Looking back I've walked so far not knowing that I would possibly make it at first but hey here I am.. Still pursing my dreams and goals but I'm not where I was before. I knew it would be a lonely road but along the way God showed me doors of new opportunities, challenges and strangers that turned to friends.

This year I have fallen several times thinking of quitting everything and do what everyone else does just to fit in. But I'm so grateful I didn't cause that's not a life I wanted, so simply along the way I learned that I don't have to answer to everyone's question cause I only have one life and I'm going to live it my way! I know that sometimes they asked you questions because they're concern but most of the time I found that they're just curious. Most people asked you about your job, studies, partners, relationships, marriage, and the question goes on but rarely people would ask you "Are you happy?"

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Today I'd like to ask you that "Are you happy?" Worry less about all the other questions cause what matter most is your happiness. Go pursue it, in whatever you do. Name it work, studies or life just do the things that bring joy into your life but remember to always be kind and gentle. Don't forget to be kind and gentle to your own self too! I know that over the pass years I've made lots of mistakes, wrong choices or made the wrong turns in life but I believe that everything will eventually lead somewhere. I am not perfect, nor will I ever be in the future but I strive to be a better person everyday. You don't need to have everything to be a decent human being, I trying to be a more compassionate person everyday because the world this days are so rough and mean.

2017 has been a year of numerous blessings, it has been like a dream! Everything progressed so quickly and I barely got time to grasp on it. Some may say I'm lucky but I'd say I'm blessed! There are a lot of times when I looked up and said "I knew that it was you, Lord" big or small, I'm so grateful for everything that has happened this year. I can't really express with words how grateful and thankful I am for this whole 365 days. 2017 for me seemed like a year of self realization:) So today is finally the last day of 2017! I'd like to wish everyone a Happy New Year and for you reading this know that I love you and you're also loved but the Most High! Never feel alone and let's face 2018 with excitement, I can't wait to see what's in store for me!

Thank you 2017, you've been so kind. I'll cherish all the wonderful memories forever...

Love, Stevie